my life
if i didn't tell u i like u, we might still be friends..
" Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end."
everytime i go for driving lesson i always get late.. i couldn't catch the bus then i got to walk from MRT to driving centre lo.. walk about 10 to 15 mins.. so u know how far is it? today lesson is fun.. can really drive kinda fast.. n FEEL the speed.. the instructor once told me that after stage 1 can book practical test date le.. cooL.. my mama expect me to pass the 1st time.. i know a lot of my friends can do it.. but kinda stress for me.. it seems like i still very blur like that haha..
everytime i walked past jerwelly shop, it reminds me that u going to get married soon..
when people talk to me about u.. i will feel very pain...
Happy birthday daddy!!! we love u!!
PS hack into my account.. wat the hell lo.. say wat gy is my ma zi.. please don believe wat she said.. i'm innocent.. today we had a farewell party of jy.. early in the morning at 10am got to meet at ps house then go red star eat dim sum..but guess wat the most important person wake up at 10 plus.. oh my god!!! so i'm still the 1st to arrive to ps house.. no matter how late i reach, i still will be the 1st to reach..so.. we got to wait.. surppose yest need to send those photos to gah wai but i went drinking again.. n i get drunk.. so meaning i fall asleep very soon i came home.. then gw say she got call me n talk to me.. i don even remember answering her phone lo.. then today come she keep scold me.. siao.. then afternoon they came my house n play mahjong.. so i m the big winner..haha.. but we never play money la.. went jy house eat steamboat.. n brought along a bottle of red wine to let them enjoy.. but.. ps drink till her face so red lo.. then she got to sleep at jy bed lo.. most of the wine is drank by me.. so i will sure feel high lo.. haha.. then tmr 3am jy going to the airport n flying to US disneyland..
WE LOVE U!!! MUST BUY PRESENT FOR US!!!
everytime when i get drunk, it reminds me of how much i love u...
today went out with my ma zi. Geokyuan officially declared herself as my girlfriend and she came over with her gang of girlfriend to meet my parents. haha. Although gahwai is my real one. haha. bluff u one la. GW got somebody le! woo hoo!
today i had my driving lesson.. then the instructor keep talking in cantonese.. ya coz my surname very obvious that i am la.. ok.. maybe too long never drive.. a bit blur blur.. keep making mistakes then he say me lo.. then he still can turn on the radio n listen to his songs.. so enjoying lo.. n he keep singing those songs.. irritating..
today whole day out again..so tiring lo.. legs pain.. ok.. then went around orchard n have lunch at pepper lunch.. surprise that gw don know there's such s stall call pepper's lunch.. so out dated.. so unlike her.. then she got her hair cut.. not bad la.. then she kept prasing the hairstylist.. n keep touching her hair.. girls are just like that.. haha.. in the end we didn't buy anything.. stupiddd..
i don wan see her again.. but everytime i look at her, i feel i'm so much in love with her...
so today leng sms me to pass her some dvds.. i actually don wanna go out but.. give her face lo.. she ask me where to meet.. then i don wanna go places to far so i thought of either ps or bugis.. then i didn't wan to go ps coz u know.. then i told her bugis la.. then after that she told me meet at ps coz she wana buy something..but in the end she didn't buy anything.. i bought 2 t-shirts, 1 short.. n i saw vincent with a girl.. maybe is his gf.. haha..
today whole day i keep eating non-stop.. scary.. must exercise le...ok.. today wake up around 12 plus coz need to meet angeline at 2.. we went to hougang cartel.. the place kinda big n saw grace, jessica, pat.. then angeline say i lose to grace.. she say she more shuai.. haha.. ya watever.. then surprisingly i so jac.. she still wearing blue shirt.. can't believe she still not yet promoted.. so then walk around hougang doing nothing... n everyone is having holiday now.. we can play as much as we like le..hoho
i just now watch this movie.. titled " the truth about jane" it was so touching.. it was about how her mother react when her daughter told her she was a gay.. at first she really could not accept it n forcing her daughter to go for counselling.. but in the end she tried to accept her daughter as gays.. this is the part that really touches me..
people don like me copying words from books so i shall tell u all how i spent yest..
actually wanna go c bingling competition but.. i was to tired to wake up.. so sorry lo.. hope u have won.. then i accompany my mama go posb bank to do her investment thingy.. n the bank person thought that my mama invest the money for me.. haha wat a joke man.. now my whole body got rashes.. then my mama wanna me go c doc n give a jab.. but i scared.. i scare needle.. it's so pain.. i remember when i was sec3 i fainted while having a jab.. so pai seh..
it is so hard to sleep in the night..
In some respects...the act of falling in love is an act of regression. The experience of merging with the loved one has its echoes from the time when we were merged with our mothers in infancy. Along with the merging, we also reexperience the sense of omnipotence we had to give up in our journey out of childhood. All things seem possible. United with our beloved, we feel we can conquer all obstacles. We believe that the strength of our love will cause the forces of opposition to bow down in submission and melt away into the darkness. All problems will be overcome. The future will be all light. The unreality of those feelings when we have fallen in love in essentially the same as the unreality of the two-year-old who feels itself to be king of the family and the world with power unlimited
we assume that once we find our Special Someone we will simply fall in love. We will tumble into love passively, though no real choice of our own, like slipping on a banana peel or falling into a trance or a coma. When that happens, we will radiate love automatically in response, give it off like the sun sheds warmth, pour it forth like water from a spring.
Is love a sentiment, an attitude, a thrill, an emotion, a desire, a craving, an obsession, a weakness, a strength, a force, a passion, a madness, a physical urge, a divine benefaction, a way of life, a sampling of heaven, a preview of hell?
if u love her, don hurt her...
today got a lot of big happening.. i met my online friend n her gf.. n her gf is from outram.. she is 1 year my senior.. so we went to ajisan to have lunch.. very interesting both of them.. c them like that make me feel i need love too.. sob sob.. so when m i going to find my right girl? so when can i find the right girl? n then.. we shop around.. so after that we went down to cartel to have a drink.. coz they wanna c her.. she was sitting outside with the mangers..
so after they left.. i was surpposed to meet jessie for dinner at fish n co.. so walking past her.. she can't even look at me for once n quickly step into cartel..we are just strangers..
so i got my new spec.. at $80.. i choose it for a long time.. jessie say is nice.. n suit me.. so i do look shuai lo..haha..
也许，
我无法那么潇洒地离去，
但一段早知道不会有结果的情，
让它散了，却意义非凡。
希望下次你所见到的我，是全新的我。
" I want her. I need her. I can't bear to be without her. I think of her day and night. I slip into languorous dreams about her loveliness, heaving sighs of pleasure and fulfillment. I find it hard to concentrate or sleep. I don't feel like eating. i neglect important interestd, put off obligations, disregard family and friends. My obsession with her might disrupt my life completely. But I don't care. I'm a slave of love, helpless in its bandage. I want to be with her always in eternal symbiosis, Siamese twins joined at heart. "
i'm not the desperate one.. this quote i got it from a book titled "Love That Works".
hey hey.. i finally got the spec i wanna.. today evening with my mama n papa go people's park walk walk.. the new spec costs me $80.. luckily is my mama pay de.. so the new spec will fit my new image.. my mama keep say me girl is girl don act guy... so wat can i say? some facts can't change.. i can't be bother with them la..
do i look at kid? i was wondering y everytime i buy beer need to check IC.. make me feel so lose face.. like i should not buy like that.. ok watever.. i m like kinda addicted to it liao leh.. like weekend need to have a drink then i will feel better.. of course now a got a beer belly which look very disgusting la.. like pregnant like that..eee..
to my surprise, ah pang gang were performing downstairs.. can't believe they still play those same old songs which our times had already played.. y can't he improve? so oco will be having concert at VCH.. so cool.. on oct.. n vincent say that there will be a camp on middle of sep.. so he is asking whther we will go or not.. but don know about them la.. so help him ask around.. then my mum will keep saying to ask me to go cc n play dizi.. but my standard.. wasnt so good.. i scare i can't keep up to them.. so shall c how ba..
somtimes i don understand y somebody can say that he loves u while in the other hand have sex with another person.. i thought u only have sex with the person u love.. but it don seem the case? y is it? is sex so important? i don know does this sound normal but to me since u love that person u should stay by her forever , be with her.. not to flirt around n when the time comes u regret that will be no turning back..
so today is a big day for singapore.. IT"S SINGAPORE'S BIRTHDAY.. happy birthday singapore.. i'm gald i stay in singapore.. i'm proud to be a singaporeans..
these few days i have been so into the L word.. n the way they speak.. is so smooth.. their english.. is so COOL.. i hope i can speak as well as them.. i spent my nights watching it.. so now i'm just.. lack of sleep..
yest i got a good night watching the L word.. i swear.. it is very nice lo..haha.. i got it from ebay lo.. all the 3 seasons la.. today wake up a bit early for me.. coz amanda ask me have lunch with her at cartel..then outside was having some outdoor promotiom.. then got this white girl..singing all languages song.. really sound so funny lo.. i kept laughing.. then amanda wanted to kill her..haha.. then c her n her gf lo.. so sweet.. at first i don know de.. but c them like that.. then i know got something lo.. haha.. the we chatted a lot about cartel n her stuff.. then went kallang there meet jessie.. which was about 11.. of course i hide my mama then secretly go out.. if not she will say so late go out for wat..
today morning my mama ask me go out with her.. but i don wan.. i say i wanna sleep..then she scold me.. but i don care about her.. just continue sleep..haha.. every fri n sat i will keen to go out or go ps c her.. so i went down lo... didn't c her.. saw amanda n the rest.. haha..cartel is always so busy.. then i went down cine c i could c xiaoxin or not.. yeah.. i saw her.. i can always c her when i went down de lo..don know y.. then she say her cartel need staff c whether i interested or not.. but don think my mama will let.. later result not good she will scold again.. promised her to get tiong bahru pau for her..haha.. then amanda ask me to have lunch with her tmr afternoon at cartel.. i c cartel food i will vomit lo.. don know how many years then going to change the menu lo..
today driving went out to the road.. so cool i tell u.. finally realised that driving isn't that easy at all.. it's fun.. on the road i can speed up to 60 km/h.. it is already very fast le.. don know how people can speed till 100km/h.. scary lo..haha..
today i went to apply for PDL.. then the officers thought i guy..haha..it's ok..not the first time le.. maybe i too shuai le ma.. haha..
today driving is fun.. instructor say i get PDL can go on road to drive le.. that's must be interesting.. but a bit scary also.. on the road people drive fast lo.. then later got bang.haha.. must be thinking too much le..
don know y past few days i have difficulties sleeping.. my mind can't stop thinking about anything.. so lack of sleep.. i also don wanna eat med so to sleep.. bad for health ma..haha..
today got a lot of happenings lo.. i went to my 1st driving pract lesson.. it's fun to drive.. but i too stupid le.. don seem to understand the whole thingy about driving..haha.. keep driving round n round the centre....
then after driving lesson, i went to cut hair at pearl centre-QB house.. can't believe they also have lucky draw.. the grand prize is hk trip..
also bought a lot of food to eat for supper le... after recovering from my illness, my weight keep growing till i got big stomch..haha..
