my life
i'm ok
really ok
thanks for all of the concern
dont forget i'm strong kid
haha
NO MORE U IN MY LIFE..
DONT MAKE ME FEEL DISGUSTED IN WOMEN AS WELL..
I DONT WANNA BE SOMEONE WITH NO LOVE..
no matter how hard i try
i still get the same result
will u ever say u like me?
sometimes i just wanna cry damn hard
just that hard
i ever give advice to people
but when i c myself
i'm just another failure
y should i say so much?
i learn
i grow up
i wish 1 day u can love the grown up me
just that
just that simple
i so wanna to tell u i still like u as deep as before.
but when i thought of saying that
i realise that love shouldn't always be said
it maybe more beautiful if i placed it in my heart
i told a lie
i told someone i do not like u anymore
and i'm very sure of it
all i wanna is to lie to myself
so that i can feel better
yest i saw ur friendster
i saw ur pic
i felt so sad
wish time can stop at the moment we r friends
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前你却不知道我爱你
世界上最遥远的距离不是我就站在你面前你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱却不能在一起
世界上最遥远的距离不是明明知道彼此相爱却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
世界上最遥远的距离不是明明无法抵挡这股想念却得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人掘了一道无法跨越的沟渠
i came back from jessie birthday celebration
it was actually fun
but in the end
jessie was really damn drunk half way
c her like that
makes me think
drinking isn't that good at all
y do people wanna drink
it will make u sad
make u suffer
i was bored
i m always bored
sometimes i don like to stay in the house alone
so i went out
but sometimes i don like to walk around the streets alone
feel so lonely
looking at people with friends, with lovers
i dont wanna excitement in my life
i like it to be stable n calm
i'm not a happening person
n i dislike people to be happening
i'm weird
dont i?
my emo time again
actually i'm a very zi bei person
i always think i'm not that good in all areas
i tend to be very resevered
because i have low self confident
hai
i feel that i'm more cold blooded now than past
maybe i know i no more kid
i know my thinking of life changed
i don wanna be like anyone of u
i don wanna be like myself in the past
sometimes i really hate u all
the friends i used to trust
lie to me again and again
dont let me see u all again
if not i'll make sure all of u get ur retribution
i shall trust no one
i shall only enjoy life with my family and my close friends
all of u let me see how dark this world can be
i do not need friends like these
will only make use of u when they r needed
these people only good at 1 thing
they can talk
but i can tell u good talking wont last u any longer
because i'm native
because i believe that all of u are my good friend and wont harm me
i need friends who are upright
who will never cheat friends
who will get things done when asked
yeah
indeed, i'm very straightforward
and i will be like this forever
i wont tolerate any more nonsense from anyone
maybe this is wat we have to learn as we grow up
i'm used to be a loner
so even without u all
won't make any differences to me
i can make more truthworthy friends
disappointment

recently i find that those friend i used to know are different
dont know is i change or they change
but i feel that we have a distance between us
we cant communicate as before
we have different thinking
i would say we r harder to be friends any more
guess where m i now
i'm at bugis starbucks
relaxing
n doing my report
having a cup of flat white
so shuang
although i'm always alone
but i still enjoy times to be alone
it's nice